My plan was to write on the blog each day for the month of September. Okay, so I skipped a few days over a Labor Day weekend. It is a holiday and the last weekend of summer when people are usually enjoying a BBQ and outdoor activities. That is not how I spent my weekend. After a chemo treatment, I sort of blip out for a few days. I sleep, eat, watch TV, hydrate and sleep some more. But this situation fulfills one of my intentions.

One of my retirement intentions had been to slow down, relax and truly enjoy each moment, each day, each event, etc. Try as I might, I found this concept went against the grain of my being; however, I continued to feel overwhelmed, over-planned and lacking time for spontaneity.  I would joke that “I do busy” very well and planning was part of my ‘teacher’ personality.  Truly, I think I was filling each day out of fear. Deep down, I have had a fear that I would run out of time to do everything on my Bucket List. So, here I am spending time ….yep….just spending my time relaxing at the slowest pace ever. Thanks to cancer #2, I am fulfilling my retirement intention. I am learning to truly let go and just be. Every crisis does have a silver lining.